Pre wedding party…

Yesterday night we have celebrated the official registration of my brother's wedding. Here in Italy you must go to the city hall and to the church (if you're Catholic and you'll get married there) about two moths before the wedding day and put black on white the the fact you'll start a new family. Usually people celebrate with a big party this day and so we have done the same thing to respect the traditions. There was a beautiful night, not too hot, not too humid, just a perfect summer night. My brother and his future wife have invited about 30 people between relatives and friends and have prepared a nice party in the gorgeous garden of my sister in law parents house. Surrounded by palms and flowers we have spent a beautiful night. The most of the invited people were about 30/35 years old so it has been more funny and "light", my brother and her fiancée have received I don't know how many flowers bouquet (maybe ten or twelve), plants and other gift for their future home. I didn't buy nothing, I didn't have time to go and choose something, anyway I've decided I'll buy them two personal presents. I think to take a jewel for her and a watch for him, of course something expensive (!) so I'm waiting for a friend of mine, a jewels trader (who sells wholesale only to the jewelry stores) who is on holiday now, and then buy my gifts with a large discount :D He is my ace in the sleeve because his jewels are gorgeous and I'd like to buy a little diamonds lace or a diamonds bracelet to my sister in law. I must be careful with my bank account next month so I've spent some money this month buying some nice clothes like shirts, pants and three gilets in several colors. I'm becoming a gilets maniac, I love the way they fits and you can wear them with a lot of different kind of outfit. Very cool. Yesterday night I wore black pants, a purple stretch shirt with an ethnic waste, a black gilet with thin with strips (it's called "gessato" style in Italian) and a black little heels shoes (I like those shoes but my feet suffer her own pains every time...). I must admit I loved the way I looked, because my skin is pretty sunburned now and to make a nice contrast I've worn silver bangles, silver rings (I always wear only silver jewels) and a metal-silver make up. Great! Who's that girl?! :D I didn't need to find any confidence in myself and this has been the best part. It's not simple for us, women, to feel really good with our own body when we have to prepare us for a party or to go out in the night, we need to feel good with our clothes, we must find something that makes us feel great with ourselves first of all in order to feel great with the rest of the world. Cheap psychology? Maybe it is, but it's the truth. Anyway, to rest in shape I didn't eat almost nothing yesterday. My diet is going on perfectly and I never have the courage to do some "food sin" in the middle of the week! Crazy me! Of course I could eat also because i have had only salad and crackers for lunch and cycled for 90 minutes before to go to the party but... but I didn't have the courage to bite more than two little slices of pizza and a tiny square piece of ice cream cake. My diet sacrifices are giving me stunning results and also if I know I'm becoming a little maniac and obsessed about that, I want to resist for some other month. And talking about my shape and the very visible improvements, I've met "my prince of tides" (or the prince of my tides?!) who I knew was invited to the party too and he has made me a lot of compliments about that. I hate his compliments (I'm a liar!) they always drive me crazy because of the fact they drag me to loose myself inside of him and our destructive relationship... again and again! This is the worst thing that can happen between us and so I've done my best to appear detached, but I guess my mission didn't have had a big success because at the end of the night we have had a sms chat. I'm without hope and this relationship is, and will be, a never ending story. Poor me... why do I love the compliments I hate???!!! :) I'm absolutely fucked. Doctor Lowensteinnnnnnnnnnn! :D

